Friday, April 30, 2010


We took Stella to the ENT last week and we found out....nothing. We are going to go back in three weeks and have her ears checked again. She does have fluid in her ears. The doctor seemed to think it wasn't really ear related though. They are thinking it may just be a rare of case of childhood vertigo. He said her symptoms seems too long and exaggerated to be an inner ear balance thing. YUCK. So for now, we wait. We monitor dizzy spells. If they continue, we will end up seeing a neurologist. For now, I am going to hope it's related to the fluid in her ears.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Estella lately...

We have been a little worried about Stella lately. She has had several episodes of dizziness. She will seem fine and then all of the sudden, she starts falling down a lot and can't balance. Once she even threw up. The doctors seem to think it's an inner ear problem so we are going to see and ENT tomorrow. She may have to have an MRI.

Most of the time I feel very positive about finding out what's causing it. Most of the time, I feel sure that it IS and inner ear thing that will be treatable.

Other times....I'm scared to death.

Please keep us in your warm and fuzzy thoughts.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Fighting Negativity!!

I just watched a video on curiousgirl's page. It made me remember to have some faith in myself. I have to remember that I have met many challenges in my life. And NONE of them have destroyed me yet!
I can do this. I can do this. I CAN DO THIS. DAMMIT. Because I want to.
Bring it on!!

(and look at all of those tough guys who support me!! no way i can't succeed.)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I'm just waiting...waiting for summer to come and slow things down a bit!!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

No Words Necessary

No words. Just a deep cleansing breath and a heavy exhale.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Super Heroes Among Us...

There are heroes out there, you know? Some of them wear uniforms. Some of them don't. Some of these heroes among us have been around for years...learning, sharing, teaching their wisdoms of truth to those who really listen.

But there are also heroes out there who have NO clear understanding of the powers they possess.

And four of those evil fighters live in my house.

#1 has the power to listen to silence. She has peace in her heart and love in her soul. She is courageous and caring and nurturing. She is a true humanitarian. She has the power to learn new things quickly. (and she shares these bits of knowledge with her mother :) She speaks the Universal language fluently and to call her an old soul only scratches her surface. She has the power to really listen to her soul when it speaks. She is incredibly loyal.

#2 has learned the power of honesty. After having studied the difference between fiction and non, she has grown into one of the most honest people I have ever met. She is incredibly intuitive and has the ability to get to the bottom of any situation. She has the power to attract people like a magnet and she somehow uses her diplomatic style to smooth over sticky, tricky situations.

#3 has overcome his small size with his huge spirit! He is kind and considerate and sensitive. He can take things apart and rebuild them with grace. He has the power to transform himself into a larger-than-life, modern day super hero by constantly inventing new stories about saving people. He is not only an artistic story teller, he is also a fantastic conversationalist. He has the power to speak wayyy faster than any human can listen. BUT no one can resist his stories...because when he speaks slowly and you really listen...he can teach your heart to fly.

#4 is still growing her wings. She is curious and happy and eager to learn. She knows exactly when to back down and right when to stand up for herself. She is full of love for the large family around her and she carries that love wherever she goes. She has the power to state what she is feeling RIGHT when she is feeling it. She expresses herself beautifully and compassionately. Her talents are young and fresh but she is surely a superhero prodigy.

I am so thankful I have been able to hang out with my children this week. Spring break couldn't have been any better for me. I got to become reacquainted with my sweet little everyday super heroes.


(How many super heroes do you know?? I think my Daddy is the original Superman...but that's a story for another day.)

Saturday, April 3, 2010


I saw this cool blog and decided to play along with her If I Were....JUST FOR FUN.

if i were a month, i would be may…i'd blow soft evening breezes and listen for the sounds of laughter calling for summer,
if i were a day i’d be saturday. lazy and productive all at the same time,
if i were a time of day i’d be sunrise… full of possibilities and hopeful beginnings,
if i were a font i’d be fancy and curly q,
if i were a sea animal i’d be a sea turtle…old and wise, calm and beautiful,
if i were a direction i’d be south. always heading somewhere warm,
if i were a piece of furniture i’d be a big comfy couch,
if i were a liquid i’d be water…feeding, soothing, nurturing,
if i were a gemstone i’d be a diamond…strong, vibrant, and clear headed,
if i were a tree i’d shoot straight through the canopy of the rain forest,
if i were a flower i’d be a bright orange poppy,
if i were an element of weather i’d be a lovely ocean breeze,
if i were a musical instrument i’d be a flute,
if i were a color i’d HAVE to be a fantastic shade of green,
if i were an emotion i’d be love and compassion,
if i were a fruit i’d be a sweet juicy watermelon,
if i were a sound i’d be the sweet, soft tinkle of a wind chime,
if i were an element i’d choose to be an element of art and I’d be color,
if i were a car i’d be a cute little convertible
if i were a food i’d be a yummy soul food side dish like mac and cheese, green beans, or mashed taters
if i were a place i’d be an island in the carribean ,
if i were a taste i’d be caramel,
if i were a scent i’d be soft and subtle and clean like fresh pressed linen,
if i were a body part i’d be the kind of eyes that see into your soul,
if i were a song i’d be New York Nights and Paris Mornings by Corrine Bailey Rae,
if i were a bird i’d be an owl…soft, silent, quick
if i were a city i’d be Savannah, Georgia,
if i were a door i’d be open and i would lead out onto an old southern veranda,
if i were a pair of shoes i’d be flip flops…probably rainbows,
if i were a poem I would be Wild Horse by Jewel