Truth Serum

Have you ever tried really hard to fit in somewhere?  Tried really hard to have a voice of reason (or what you believe to be reason) in a crowded room of choas?  Have you ever worked so hard that you almost lost yourself in the process?  Felt the urge to cave in to the majority?  Ever see  yourself in a smokey mirror and wonder where you went...exactly? 

I recently found myself feeling like a lonely little island in a pretty rough sea.  I wasn't totally alone...there were other islands nearby BUT not so near that I forgot to get a little desensitized to the so-called "norm" that is NOT really acceptable.  Not even close.

Sometimes I think it's OK to accept a situation for what it is and move on to something better.  Better for me anyway.  Even though I have spent LOTS OF TIME beating myself up for giving up too soon, in certain situations, I have also come to the conclusion that sometimes it's OK to give up, count your losses, deal with the consequences, and move on. 

Yes, sadly, I need a new job.  Cause I just turned in my notice.